How I envy those
Who can bare their souls to those around them
My private thoughts
Have been used too often to risk further exposure
My soul laid waste
By those who chose to abuse it for their own needs
I shared my life with the wrong person
Now I must spend the rest of it
Holding back
When I need a shoulder to cry on
Holding my tongue
When I want to scream with rage
To express myself
Hurts far more than than it heals
So I hide behind walls
Of careless affection and general pleasantries
Forced to appear shallow
To protect the depths of my emotions
I feel far too much
For a world that cares far too little
You don't know me
As much as I want you to
And you don't care
As much as I need you to